Tuesday, February 2, 2010

An AH-HA moment

I've always felt that most people probably see me as an underachiever. I'm fine with it. I agree for the most part. I have always had big plans for myself but I keep putting them off saying I will do them soon and then feel guilty that I've done so little. I see people in my ward that are doing all these things that make me feel like I'm so far behind. I have friends that have gone back to school, graduated and have now applied for masters programs. I have friends that are hyper-organized and work out daily. I have friends that have 5 kids, a full time job and still manage to seem happy and relaxed. You name it I have a friend that can do it. Then, there's me. I want to go back to school, I want to start my own Catering business, I want to be a photographer, I want to be a glass blower, I want to be on a roller derby team, and I want to be a great mom. All these things stress me out on a daily basis. Then the other morning while blog-stalking while feeding Ewan, I read this.


Why should I feel guilty not doing all of these things NOW? I am so blessed and happy to have such wonderful kids and a husband that makes it possible for me to put off everything else and just be their mom. So I've decided to be happy with where I am. To all of you over-achievers out there, more power to ya. I'm going to be happy just being a mom.


Jen said...

I do this a lot too. Mostly over the time others seem to have in their day that I must waste somehow. But as I have fewer and fewer kids at home and that time is coming, I'm now freaking out about what I will actually do when they're all gone. I'm trying to just enjoy the here and now. And if it's any consolation, I think you're super mom and not an underachiever at all. You're so talented at everything you try.

Tiffany Wilson said...

I'm actually really impressed with all the things you want to do someday. I think your desire to pursue your talents and ambitions is very cool. Do you think it's a problem for those of us who are "just moms" who don't have any ambitions for the future? Maybe I'll have some, someday when I'm not so tired. ;)