We're not huge Valentines people at our house. Well, some of us aren't. We keep things simple. So, I thought I would use my blog as a cheap and low-key way to express my love to Kirk. Bear with me.
Kirk, Thank you for 11 1/2 great years! Thank you for standing by me through the kitchen experiments, the decorating choices, the money problems, the childbirth, the fad diets, the fights, the late night sneezing fits, the cancer, washing machine mishaps, the bossiness,the titty twisters, and all the other pains I've put you through. You are my soul mate and I thank God every day that you are by my side and that you enjoy being there (or at least fake it well). I can't wait till I can give you a big hug and a kiss again. I love you Stubbi.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
I've always felt that most people probably see me as an underachiever. I'm fine with it. I agree for the most part. I have always had big plans for myself but I keep putting them off saying I will do them soon and then feel guilty that I've done so little. I see people in my ward that are doing all these things that make me feel like I'm so far behind. I have friends that have gone back to school, graduated and have now applied for masters programs. I have friends that are hyper-organized and work out daily. I have friends that have 5 kids, a full time job and still manage to seem happy and relaxed. You name it I have a friend that can do it. Then, there's me. I want to go back to school, I want to start my own Catering business, I want to be a photographer, I want to be a glass blower, I want to be on a roller derby team, and I want to be a great mom. All these things stress me out on a daily basis. Then the other morning while blog-stalking while feeding Ewan, I read this.
Why should I feel guilty not doing all of these things NOW? I am so blessed and happy to have such wonderful kids and a husband that makes it possible for me to put off everything else and just be their mom. So I've decided to be happy with where I am. To all of you over-achievers out there, more power to ya. I'm going to be happy just being a mom.