I've always felt that most people probably see me as an underachiever. I'm fine with it. I agree for the most part. I have always had big plans for myself but I keep putting them off saying I will do them soon and then feel guilty that I've done so little. I see people in my ward that are doing all these things that make me feel like I'm so far behind. I have friends that have gone back to school, graduated and have now applied for masters programs. I have friends that are hyper-organized and work out daily. I have friends that have 5 kids, a full time job and still manage to seem happy and relaxed. You name it I have a friend that can do it. Then, there's me. I want to go back to school, I want to start my own Catering business, I want to be a photographer, I want to be a glass blower, I want to be on a roller derby team, and I want to be a great mom. All these things stress me out on a daily basis. Then the other morning while blog-stalking while feeding Ewan, I read this.
AH-HA!
Why should I feel guilty not doing all of these things NOW? I am so blessed and happy to have such wonderful kids and a husband that makes it possible for me to put off everything else and just be their mom. So I've decided to be happy with where I am. To all of you over-achievers out there, more power to ya. I'm going to be happy just being a mom.
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I do this a lot too. Mostly over the time others seem to have in their day that I must waste somehow. But as I have fewer and fewer kids at home and that time is coming, I'm now freaking out about what I will actually do when they're all gone. I'm trying to just enjoy the here and now. And if it's any consolation, I think you're super mom and not an underachiever at all. You're so talented at everything you try.
I'm actually really impressed with all the things you want to do someday. I think your desire to pursue your talents and ambitions is very cool. Do you think it's a problem for those of us who are "just moms" who don't have any ambitions for the future? Maybe I'll have some, someday when I'm not so tired. ;)
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